Hope @ Ransom

It's like a juggernaut,

heading right towards me,

And as it gets closer -there is nothing I can see.

It hurts before it hits me

I barely stand, and it sits me

Then it plunges through the dark mist,

I shudder and watch with my clenched fist.

At the speeds that I can't control,

The trajectory that I can’t fathom.

I feel like a captive -with my hope at ransom.

Admission seems as a likely answer

Giving up citing a funny banter,

Suggesting it was tough, it wasn’t meant to be, I wasn’t ready, it wasn’t for me.

Punched, battered, bruised and Chained

And they took that part and surgically maimed.

The part without which no part is whole

It’s a need for life and food for soul.

But I wasn’t the only one, there were others before me

They were put through the same, and yet they were free

Prison don’t stop us, peers do,

Ropes don’t tie us fears do.

For it doesn’t come easy, it’s an upward slope

The part which makes it a whole- Is Hope

Not Knot

No, not yet.

It’s a little hard to forget.

Not sure if we were ever meant to be

I see no light as far as I can see

I know I wasn’t ever longsighted

The present for me was always highlighted

Craziness is probably all ceased

The feelings, the love, kind of deceased

I remember when one drop of tear was plenty

But I can’t seem to,- this time ‘up the ante’

You come genuine, you seem fair

You have shown me enough care

But it’s like that outer skin has peeled

And I don’t like what that revealed

It’s just not the same, that’s what I fear

Whatever I feel now, is unclear

I don’t know where I have reached

I feel- tired, lost and impeached

I will hold the fort, I am clear

I won’t run along, at the sign of fear

But are you worthy, I can’t bet

No, knot yet…………………….